Friday, January 29, 2010

one of those days...

Today is one of those days where I don't want my kids to touch me. I can't figure out how to use an "inside voice" when i speak to them. I freak out at the littlest things, and use every ounce of patience within me to get through- moment to moment. I'm not sure why it's one of those days. The house isn't ridiculously messy, which often sparks these kinds of days. None of my usual "triggers" can be found, except for the absence of my best friend/love/partner in parenting. :( Steve's been working later than usual, and when you add all our weekly evening activities to the schedule, and the fact that last night I just had to LEAVE for a while when he got home just to get some sanity back, there hasn't been much time together. That must be the trigger.

It's quiet time now, and all too soon I'll have to wake the kids up to go get Lillian. I have a list about 15 items long of things to cram into this short amount of time. But instead, I have a song playing in my head. It's called "It Won't Be Like This For Long." So I decided to go around the house and take pictures that kind of capture the phase of life we're in. In case you need to read this as much as I need to write it, here are the lyrics, along with a few photos of things I noticed in my house today that made me sad because it really won't be like this for long. enjoy.

It Won't Be Like This For Long by Darius Rucker (the Hootie and the Blowfish guy!)

He didn't have to wake up
He'd been up all night
Layin’ there in bed listenin’
To his new born baby cry
He makes a pot of coffee
He splashes water on his face
His wife gives him a kiss and says
It gonna be OK

It won’t be like this for long
One day soon we'll look back laughin’
At the week we brought her home
This phase is gonna fly by
So baby just hold on
‘Cause it won't be like this for long

Four years later ‘bout 4:30
She's crawling in their bed
And when he drops her off at preschool
She's clinging to his leg
The teacher peels her off of him
He says what can I do
She says now don't you worry
This’ll only last a week or two

It won’t be like this for long
One day soon you'll drop her off
And she won’t even know you're gone
This phase is gonna fly by
If you can just hold on
It won’t be like this for long

Some day soon she'll be a teenager
And at times he'll think she hates him
Then he'll walk her down the aisle
And he'll raise her veil
But right now she's up and cryin’
And the truth is that he don't mind
As he kisses her good night
And she says her prayers

He lays down there beside her
‘Til her eyes are finally closed
And just watchin’ her it breaks his heart
Cause he already knows

It won’t be like this for long
One day soon that little girl is gonna be
All grown up and gone
Yeah, this phase is gonna fly by
So, he's tryin’ to hold on

‘Cause it won’t be like this for long

It won’t be like this for long


The Yellow Door Paperie said...

I'm tearing up, it goes so quickly. Our fridge looks exactly like that right now.

Angela Kim said...

teary too.
we will miss these days so much.
but we will also enjoy every stage of the way...I know that too.

Jason & Kate said...

okay...thanks for the tears andrea :) and i could not have read that at a more perfect time. i just bathed myla because she threw up EVERYWHERE--couch, rug, clothes, hair... but now she's clean, changed and sleeping in my arms. great lyrics. thank you.

Ryan and Katie said...

I really needed to hear that today! Thanks!

Anonymous said...

I am too emotional today. That's the day I'm having.

Becky said...

I, too, got teary! Thanks you for posting this. I struggle with Post Partum Depression. The way you described yourself at the beginning of this post sounds a lot like myself.

I appreciate your honesty and your fresh perspective. You have lifted my spirits today and helped me to be a better mom. I think tomorrow during rest time I am gonna take some pics!

Sarah said...

Wow Andrea... great minds think alike I guess :) I took several VERY similar photos just YESTERDAY for my 365 blog... "proof that a toddler lives here" is what I was taking pictures of, but definitely the same sentiment. :)

Renee said...

Thanks Andrea for the post! I was just looking at photos this morning with the kids on our computer and remembering how little they were and how fast it's gone. Being a stay at home mom is challenging at times but will be worth it in the long run! :) Hugs and kisses to the kiddos from us!