on new years resolutions

I'm really bad at new years resolutions. I've never really made any, because when I try it's just kind of a joke. Oh, well, I take that back. One thing I try to do each new year is see how long I can go flossing my teeth at least once a day. In the last 3 or so years I've done it, I think the longest run was like 16 days or something. I do floss sporadically throughout the year, just not every day. So I like to see how long I can do it daily. anyway, the way this year started off, I didn't even floss on January 1. So that one's kind of out the window.

I'm just really bad at setting goals and reaching them. In my 3 years as a CM consultant, I was always encouraged to set goals and make a plan to reach them and all that. I never did it. I don't like to have set goals. I guess I'm lazy that way.

Or maybe I just like to go with the flow. People have said that about me my whole life actually. It's just my nature to see how things pan out, and not get too worked up about making things happen my way. I think I like that about myself.

usually.

But last year I was inspired by someone who I don't really even know. I have met her twice. She probably has no clue who I am (that was for you Christa) but she has totally inspired me. When I met her she was overweight and beautiful. One of those people who you could tell had a good sense of fashion, and who looked in the clothes she wore. but, she was overweight. anyway, if I remember correctly, she made a motto for herself last year. It was to be "fine in 09" or something. And holy smokes, she did it. She totally changed how she ate, started running and doing other exercises, and she looks CRAZY good. It's incredible. inspiring.

So this year, I decided to not really make any new years resolutions, but I do just want to try to make my life better. I realized for a few months this summer (I think that's when it was), that when I take care of my body and do a little exercise regularly, my whole life changes. My house is cleaner, my laundry is more under control, I pay more attention to what I eat, I play with my kids more, I am a less selfish wife, I have a stronger desire to do daily devotions, I put real clothes on, I might even wear makeup, all sorts of things happen! So don't ask my why I didn't just keep it up. I just didn't.

Part of it was that until recently I had access to C&Cs treadmill and weight set, right here in my home. That made it a lot easier for a cheap-o mom who refuses to pay for a gym membership plus the cost of bringing the kids with me, and probably not being able to take N because he's not mine, and all the complications of doing that route. I think it would TOTALLY work for me to work out at a gym, but it doesn't fit into my life very well with Steve's schedule and my babysitting, etc.

But we recently had Steve's parents bring up his old weight set from high school. After C&C's stuff was out of the storage room, we realized that we might be able to put some sort of exercise equipment in there. So we did. We aren't sure how we want to organize the room yet, but it's in there, and usable.

I'm not going to do anything crazy like forbid myself to drink Diet Coke, or eat snacks, or anything like that. I'm just going to make an effort to get fit. "Fit again in 2010." :) or, if you want to be like Steve, you can say it with a really redneck voice, and change it to "fit in two thousand tin." (yep, I married a comedian.) :) I'm just going to lift weights, and start doing pilates again (if that's okay with you Maria). And the rest will hopefully just happen. And if not, I'll FEEL better anyway. I'm not as concerned about how I look as much as how I feel. I'm ready to feel fit again. okay, and, I guess a little change in how I look would be great. :) As much as I miss my mom, I don't really want to see her body with my head on it in the mirror anymore. She was much older than me when she looked like this...

So there it is. My non-resolution. Hopefully in the first three months there will be especially noticeable changes, seeing as I'll be standing in a little black dress in front of a church full of people in about that much time. But if not, well, then, I just hope I keep going another three months, an another, and maybe even another. and then maybe next year I'll keep "feelin like heaven in 2011" or something equally as cheesy...

we'll see. :)